im really tired my. mental are fuccked. my mind keep wandering keep replaying the memory how i wish can delete all of it but im not a robot so here i am suffer with the memory replaying the same film over and over again

TW suicide every night i wrote some sort of letter to each of my friend even tho never send it and at the end it always said if im gone for what ever reasson dont cry because im happier with the star and i stand by it

as a photographer i capture so many angle so many smiles and yet i still dont capture my own smiles

i miss my old self losing my smile and laugh almost everyday

i think im going crazy because why sometime i laugh sometime cry sometimes smile alone or all of it at the. same time

'what come after snows when it melted' is the question that make me smile bitterness

time move then WHY TF IM FUCKING STUCK HERE STILL im tired. im screaming inside no one heard with voice that killing me slowly

saw the smile again somehow it thawed the frozen snow like spring. what comes after snow melt? spring come

I couldn’t sleep, so I wrote and wrote. Still, one question clung to my throat Do I deserve to be here? To feel anything at all? Even in my words, I hear silence call.

cant sleep last night and wondering there are so many stars in the sky do people notice if 1 missing

*After Snow* "You’ll catch a cold," he says with a grin, rain falling gently on the ghost of my skin. "I miss her," I breathe, not needing reply, just the sea, just the sky. "What comes after snow?" he asks, eyes on me. I smile through the ache "Spring... but not for me."

TW/// self harm This past few days i almost got into major crash why because have been trouble breathing and sometimes focusing when i was driving sometimes the voice on my mind felt cloded and alot to bear it tbh i hate myself sometimes wish the crash can stop the voice

cant believe im on my spiral again i dont feel like eating im having trouble breathing and puke everything's i ate

sometimes i feel bad for my friends im slowly going to self destruct and keep. bothering them left and right

TW self harm. i bash my head on the wall to make the voices stop

I went back today— same place, same scent, a laugh like yours in the air. I turned— and there you were, smiling. But not for me. Still, my heart bowed gently. Because you smiled. Because you're okay. So I smile too, and whisper to the wind: I wish you happy. Always.

need to gain confidence of myself so here pic of me

you look happy now. Thanks to medicine and my mental health problem because i dont even know how to smile anymore is all on the things im taking

i will never stop caring about you.

is weird everytime i heard you name or someone mention it i would flinch or forze mid sentence but now im doing better now it just a passing memory that i learn to appreciate to carry a good things and leave the story as a journey