“enjoy your crisis” thank you, for your consideration the pleasure principle thrives in chaos i reach for love in places there should be none if only to kiss the glass shrapnel if only to metalsing my wounds if only to strip the holy from unholy fuck your pity party baby

jetpack blues still sounds like you i drive through our old kingdom saving the song for when i’m alone when our princehood was young we didn’t even know how rich we were “baby, come home”

I finally get to be the baby of the family, and spoiled am I so rich in ahi-red praise

my father’s first son // 9.25.22

my girl says if she could fly she’d swim through the air like it was water and it reminds me of how she slept in her dragon egg arms starfished out and legs tangled up in the covers little love goddess hogging all the blankets

funeral for a name / Nov. 11th, 2022

turnstile jumping || 10/23/2022

and now you’re throwing parties without me while i watch quietly on the fire escape snapchat memories are more reliable than my own we had a good run, didn’t we i’m always laughing in these photos robbed of my twenties, I don’t party like I used to baby

butchgod // 11/03/22

i did not love you the way i thought i did like the way you think a vaccine is gonna hurt a pinprick and an ache but nothing more the last time I was in this ER I was choking on my own airways telling love to stay home, stay safe asking you to love me more than the quiet

i’m so sorry and i’m so sorry because i was on a self-destruct countdown pipe lovebomb in slow motion when the rubble from the fallout remained a seventeen year old heart beat faster and faster i’m sorry and one day i’ll be able to tell you how much

disappeared into the ether of the party scene dissociation / fragmentation completely fall apart to start again. cling to my wrongdoings as if they will save you from the ultimately self-serving nature of your cowardice- if you cry out first, you will always have the upper hand

the smoke from a wildfire that ain’t mine blows into the sky and even though I did not set it I claim it because I will not leave a single part of you homeless

headfirst slide out of new york on an over/under | 6:12AM, 5/02/23