but when i'm with you, i fear everything. i fear loss, i fear death, i fear that my time with you will come to an end...

I feel like shit rn

Downing that shit except it’s water this time lol. I need this ibuprofen to kick in already

Jesus I can’t even see what one of those Nicks is saying anymore on my stuff wtf is going on today

Ibuprofen is kicking in. At least some kind of relief is coming

Should’ve never interacted with the kid. Called him chickadee right off the bat too. What’s wrong with me

Is it weird to mourn your son not son that’s your son where you died but your son son is still him but there’s another him that’s not him but he’s him but you’re not his

I feel like my family is falling apart again and again. This time shit is only making it worse.

And just as I say this, suddenly there a teen version of my other boyfriend too. Scared the crap out of me that Scam did something to her too but I’m losing it again nonetheless.

In my bunker

normalize breaking the law

Remembering that I had to manually make holes in swiss cheese because my when my kid was younger he refused to believe it was swiss unless it had holes

chaos reigns

going for a drive