tired of healing from things i didn't deserve.

being tan makes me feel better about myself

I would cry but I got self tanner on😒

I beat myself up because I don’t look like I used to but the old me also didn’t have trauma & wasn’t a full time mom that gets no sleep. She also had tons of time in order to take care of herself how she needed. I really let myself go as a mom & that hurtsss.

I want to be so genuinely happy one day that none of the bad thoughts ever cross my mind

I need to remind myself that healing may consist of taking two steps forward & one step back but I will get to where I need to be eventually🌞

An old man stopped me in the store & bought me a rose & told me he hopes I have a good Mother’s Day and to cherish it. As bad as my week has gone he didn’t know I really needed that❣️

Idk what mom needs to hear this but stop comparing your body to women that haven’t carried life yet

Lucas spent 12 hours yesterday building my new coop & run for the chickens he claims he never wanted🤣🫶🏼

u glow differently when you’re actually feeling happy and in the right mindset

I genuinely wonder how happy & healthy I would look if I got all the love I pour into other people poured into me sometimes too.

Lucas and I drove to South Carolina ( 9.5 hours there) & back in 40 hours with our 2 kids. Never again I’ll tell you that.

I can’t get over the fact that if one of Luke’s friends needs something he usually drops everything to help them or atleast offers to, yet not a soul is there for him & would never do the same.

I’ve been feeling awfully drained & sick so Lucas woke up early for work today to clean the house & feed the kids dinner❣️😭

i use to be afraid of losing people until i realized most of them were never really down for me anyways. even though my loyalty and love for them ran deep, they could care less. so instead of being afraid of losing them, i fell back and watched them lose me