it’s just annoying bc she’s very inflexible around her schedule. i suggest any other time and she’s like nope gotta pick the kids up i’m only around your area this one thursday like come on

can’t believe tmrs not only the one day i go into work but also a day i have to walk to the hospital from work and it’s going to snow apparently just typical

i’m such a bad influence on myself bc in my heart ik if i go in more often i’ll be less anxious but my dumb brains like no it won’t it’ll suck forever avoid going in as much as possible bc if you go in you’ll DIE

i have such a negative mindset that if i think a positive thought i will make fun of myself for being positive

i also can’t admit i’m wrong about my negative thoughts like if someone says oh that wasn’t too bad was it? i’m like well yeah kinda bad actually even if i don’t think that bc positivity is for looooosers

people do actual hard things like really hard shit and i’m a little baby scared to sit in an office for a singular day bc someone might talk to me wahhh wahhh what a loser

oh i feel insanely nauseous i think i’m going to throw up

okay well the tests we were going to test today might not even actually be mine so idk where mine have gone so i’ve had to email the woman they belong to being like oops sorry i opened them ik they had your name on i’m so so sorry ugh

fucking hell the chest pains are so bad and idk if it’s actual chest pains or anxiety or acid reflux or a combination i’m going to throw upppp

the carla ryan scene in the factory was one of my faves it was so funny and cute ryan is the best swarla ally