you're pretending that you could be good, that you could be anything other than part—knife part—wound.

it's a fitting punishment for a monster. to want something so much， to hold it in your arms and know beyond a doubt you will never deserve it.

i kneel into a dream where i am good and loved. i am good. i am loved. my hands have made some good mistakes. they can always make better ones.

(estáe dolió por qué suena a lo que pensará Marius sobre ᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠ𝐂𝚑𝚛𝚒𝚜ᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠ

there is a reason nobody likes you. you were hurt so you hurt back. you want to be loved for who you are. but who you are is so vile.

something horrible is happening inside of me and i don't know why. my nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. i feel lethal， on the verge of frenzy. i think my mask of sanity is about to slip.

-Ultimamente ya no duerme Todas las noches tiene pesadillas y trata de evitarlas a toda costa-

i don't know where to hide my rage.

-ha ido a tocar a la puerta de ᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠ𝐂𝚑𝚛𝚒𝚜ᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠ Últimamente escucha a la bebé llorar mucho, y conociendo a Chris, de seguro no duerme por atenderla- "Chris... Has dormido?" -Él no lo ha hecho, pero siente que puede aguantar más -

-ha salido al parque con la niña en brazos y... Pura gente potando Mejor se va a otro parque--

i did something stupid & blamed it on love.

i did not mean to be cruel. i swear i am good. i am good. i am kind. i have love inside of me. some place far far away.

love is the most twisted curse of all.

it's a shame things turned out like this.

and in the middle of my chaos there was you.

or am i too weak to save you in the end?

i'm scared of the love i have for you. because i know it will ruin me. and i also know that i will let it.

-Chris sigue siendo tan... Hermoso... Y trágico -

it appears i am some abomination.