i cant say this w/o sounding annoying af but i hate carrying most of my weight in my hips thighs and ass it makes me look like 5 bmi points higher than if the weight was distributed evenly

literally how I feel I got diagnosed with bipolar 2 around 2 years ago and hearing everyone say things like "I'm so manic right now" or stuff like that is sooo irritating like omgee

thinking about people being skinnier than me makes me feel so jealous like okay my wl is so slow and I need to kill myself

like ok I'm genuinely contemplating suicide over this

like oh my God I'm actually going to look like this forever I am genuinely so ugly inside and out I don't have any redeeming qualities and everyone is lying to me

i thought I was so ugly during eras I actually looked good too I'm so embarrassed

seeing people I used to know be skinnier than me makes me want to die

i will never be that thin again and its all my fault

my eating disorder has ruined my entire life

and I don't even want to get better because I will just continue to gain because of my fucked up metabolism no matter what I do I'm not going to be happy

i have done it all to myself I don't even have the right to be mad

good fucking night

ok not sleeping rippinfg out chunks of hair

i am beingfffpathetic

everyone is lying to me stop

i have a headache because I'm retarded