Nosebleed twice in one day... What a good birthday smh 🥲

... I want to die. I don't want to die. I want a happy life. I want a peaceful death.

... Sometimes death sound like the only way out of terrible situation. I wish I can complete everything. I wish I can live up to people's expectation. I'm sorry. I'm doing my best. I'm sorry. I have failed so many people. I still refuse to give up. But it's hard in these time.

Horrible years in my life. I'm sorry for being so negative on twitter. Life just been horrible, and I'm doing my best to get it out alive and well right now. Almost accepting defeat last month, but I'll fight for it.

Found a suicide hotline in my country, it doesn't work at midnight through. 1PM to 8PM. Maybe I'll give it a shot later.

What's the bravest thing you ever said ? Help. Asking for help isn't giving up. It's refusing to give up. Saw this from TankTolman a while ago. It originally from The Boy, the Mole, the Fox and the Horse I think ?

Somehow, I understand why people smoking, using drug, alcohol, when they grow up. Sometimes reality is harsh, that they need something to fogged up their mind. I grow up never fond of those, but many times, it does feel tempting to stop all the voices in my head.

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Having nightmares 2 days in row...

Feeling sicks while on verge of tears, doesn't feel good.

...Things will get better, no matters how harsh your current reality is. Trust me.