y'know I really picked the worst time to try to get a job in the research sector considering everything is GETTING FUCKING DEFUNDED 😡

Random reminder to take a moment for a few deep breaths. I believe in you. You got this 💗

So um... what am I supposed to do with all this stuff to make a Sinder cosplay now? I can't just throw it away but I can't keep making the costume...

I bruised my ass from cycling too long 🥲

Hey, remember to get regular check-ups! You don't want to be like me and find out that you have 2 untreated autoimmune conditions Turns out my blood doesn't circulate right and my thyroid isn't producing the right amount of hormones I literally thought I was losing it 🫠

Y'know a year can change a lot Last Halloween I was suicidal cause I felt hopeless and needed someone to love and save me This Halloween I'm moving cause I got a job at a neuroscience lab doing cool science shit You don't need anyone to complete you 💖 ✨Go fuck shit up 😊✨

ALSO Monday is my first day and I'm nervous as all hell 😣😱 WISH ME LUCK I'm gonna need it

So I actually opened Vtube Studio so I could make a lil update video! It was so weird to look at myself as Widow again but it felt nice at the same time

Nothing like taking feet pics in the middle of the night Being an artist is weird

I can't believe I had to make a discord for my lab job 🤡🤡🤡

Did I ever tell you guys that being a streamer actually helped me get this job? Turns out a lot of the streaming tech has a lot of other applications... I had to fix an OBS problem...

I got a VR headset Subnautica can do VR I'm going to do something I will deeply regret 😀

For one of the studies my lab is doing (not my specific project) they use an fMRI before and after certain points in the experiment I've never actually seen an fMRI machine in person so I got to sit in and watch a random dude get his head fMRI'd for funsies 🤣

In case you ever wonder what practicing hands looks like 😂🫠

Will I ever start Vtubing again? Honestly who the fuck knows Will I make another Vtuber model? YES JUST TO PROVE I STILL FUCKING CAN OH MY GOD