At this point i don’t need a therapist, i need an exorcism 😂

I really wanna experience traveling with someone I’m in love with.

i hate that everything boils down to detachment. that’s honestly such a sad way to live.

I will marry a lover boy with provider mindset who loves to spoil me, & is unashamedly & unapologetically in love with me.

It is damn fucking rare to find someone who will understand you..

How long can i bend till i break?

Being forced to detach because you can’t be together, is a pain I don’t wish on anyone..

You can’t win them all, Who knows how much longer, I lay on the floor, touch me till i vomit, I’m not scared of god, i’m scared he was gone all along..

Feels like someone twisted my guts from the inside out..

I wish if men were just honest, how hard is it fr?

And there you’re, lying on your bed watching what you can’t have fading, and fuck it’s sad..

You should know that i died slow, Running through the halls of your haunted home..

Just ew

And i find myself running away from everything i know, i’m not present, i’m not here.

I just wanna be around animals..

I’m watching as i’m losing you..

Ameen.

11:11 i wanna fucking vanish