guys hello im sorry i left i’m back & worse than ever lol

“umi what made you come back” someone told me ive been looking healthy again 😄😄😄

i also opened up to one of my friends about struggling with an ed & how i feel like i never really recover (going from ana->bed 🔄) & we realized that he might have one too & now i’m doing the damn thing every person with an ed has (seeing this as competition) i feel awful

anyway since i’ve been gone i got four new piercings, moved out, got promoted, made new friends, made a lot of new memories, been socializing more, picked up old hobbies, & have been eating a lot. a lotttttt but for the past two weeks i keep getting triggered so i am locking in

gonna ease my way back into fasting so excited yayy

just submitted five job applications wish me luck :’)

fasted for 22 hours but felt like & should’ve gone longer grr 😒

raaahhhhhh i wish i was 16 again this would be so much easier god.

also got new glasses teehee hello !! 🤓

i’m so sorry for being MIA like all the time now :( i miss interacting with everyone & being silly with my moots grrr i hate being an adult this is no fuuuunnnnn

when will i know peace

whenever i see a man who is prettier than me i rot a little harder inside

i’m going to shit myself i just stress ate bc i have a job interview tomorrow at 9am & i desperately need this job aaaaaahhhhhhhh i feel like my luck with interviews has ran out help me

I GOT THR JOB AAAA

hehe

i miss my ed sometimes... idk... i miss my community, i miss the suffering, i miss the safety, i miss the familiarity...

whats crazy is while i was getting ready for work this morning i took a video of myself to see what the back of my hair looks like & i just had my bra on & when i rewatched it i didnt even pay attention to my hair i was just looking at how big my back looks like now lol :P

i HAVE to go. i have to go somewhere. anywhere. everywhere. i have to leave. and i have to go.