My only wish is for an indie developers to hire me...

You may never know but don't get fooled by how often I post my arts but in fact, I actually in the point where I want to quit drawing but I can't... bc this is all I have... I'm exhausted for waiting nonexistent opportunities or chances.. all I got is never ending harrasment

Do you still think I still get chance to get opportunity in art?...

Why am I born as Indonesian...

Got one folder special containing my harassers comments toward me

I admit I've done several terrible things too. Unforgivable and even makes people lose interest and lose many friends...but damn...Do I not deserve peace without being paranoid? Is this my karma?

burn out

I get slandered by some random again, accused me that I'm pro Z, bc I drew fanarts of Homelander years ago...

so many mutuals get chosen to be wf content creators made me feel being left out...cast aside... in fact that i was the one being rejected years ago...made me feel bitter, angry, and sad

I had enough my art getting stolen, copy, plagiarized, ignored, rejected, everything....I want to stop but I can't...

Man, that same harasser who stalked me through my Nsfw warframe fanarts for years until now still doing it. And they keep spam my porn arts to the DE crews everytime they commented on my art post... imagine... almost 6 years...

Have you ever hated yourself so much that you couldn't look in the mirror? For years?

sometimes, I begin to think this is just the beginning of my downfall...

I feel like Warframe art community hates me...

losing some of the mutuals who have been following you for years for something you were not sure what have you done feels worse, like what did you do? you can't even dare to ask them, bc it could make you look rude, audacity, and impolite... and now they see you as a villain

25k at what cost?

Fuckung coughing blood

MK stan accounts are toxic, sickening, sensitive, and childish as fuck...why the hell I fell into that fandom pit? why am I fell in love with the Sub-Zero??

I had been having the same nightmare...over and over lately for almost a week...now almost 2 weeks... is this normal?

First, instagram, then my steam, then my discord... whoever tried to attempt to hack them clearly hates me