"one last binge" "i need to starve" "fuck it i'm binging" "i'm fasting for a week" GET OUT OF MY HEAD

Standing on my scale butt naked just incase my panties weigh 1 kg

"you're not fat you're just chubby" BRO FUCK OFF

Sorry I would love to but I just made a bunch of rules for myself and I’m actually not allowed to do that

small loss is still loss..... small loss.... is.... still loss ......

maturing is realizing that weightloss comes only when you actually eat less and not when you convince yourself to eat less tomorrow 😣

but i’m a crepe i’m a weirdough

anyone who says 17 never has been 19

#edtwt me when I don’t loose 10kg after a 48hr fast

WHY CAN I FEEL VOMIT CRAWLING UP MY THROAT I HAVENT EATEN IN LIKE 5 HOURS??? FUCK OFF!!

lowkey I can feel my muscles wasting like I'm pretty weak these days so I might try harm reduction?? I'm not skinny enough to be weak yet

house is empty so I'm probably gonna cut myself yay

other option is to try recovery. for a little bit cause i dont want to hurt my family. thinking

I wanna cut but aftercare takes so long and I like really don't have the energy :/// maybe ill burn myself or something but man I fucking hate when I have urges but can't do them

I was gonna buy some bandages and stuff from the pharmacy by my house but my fucking aunt now works there?????

25hr fast, was supposed to omad under 300 cals but failed so ig we are doing under 800 :// hopefully gonna walk home later (2hrs walk) to offset it?? also yes I'm aware wlaking home alone at night is dangerous i don't really care that much

I feel so disgusting and invalid cause I kinda wanna drink with my friends tonight and ik alcohol calories are different but I'm already at nearly 800 idk man, I haven't had a real "meal" since like last Wednesday cause I kept binging and purging idk I fucking I hate this