cut cut cut

I'm terrible miserable unreliable irresponsible

not that pain, bit warm

need new razor blade, this doesn't cut anymore

which one do I have to avoid

i love high place

its just looks like victimization to others. im just whimpering out of my hallucinations. I'm worthless other than providing art to the world. but then again its just looks like victimization to others.

I wanna leave this world

everything is not working, everyone is getting better and better but not me. im left alone in the bottom of the pit.

everyone will get bored of me eventually

why can't I cut deeper its just a matter of how hard I push I need to see my blood to calm

new item acquired : cardboard cutter

I don't mind being called baiter. because no matter what I go through, its just a things happening beyond the monitor to them. who am I to complain, im placed below everyone.

conclusion is always lock every feeling in myself and wear fake "normal person" mask

even this counted as a self victimization

not enough scars not enough blood

self loathing comes from nowhere hurts me like hell whenever they want

fake laugh fake cry fake anger fake fake fake