Okay I’m gonna try to eat like 3000 cals today and lots of sodium cuz I have my weigh in tmr☹️

What should I have for my snack today hmm too many choices

Can’t wait to restrict again ughshsshsh

Need to relapse so bad nothing else feels fulfilling

I want to touch him 🥺

I’m so bored and just wasting time ugh

Tidied my room a bit but still feel lazy idk why things just feel wrong like I’m just living WRONG and idk how to fix it

Lol I love how I go for a walk and immediately feel better. I’m still sad but I feel less suffocated by it.

Should I make a space while walking sometime hmm

I’m left alone for dessert tonight and I’m trying really hard to make myself eat it and not purge, but I’m already so full and it’s really hard:( I wanna weigh as much as possible for my weigh in tomorrow ugh I’m trying so hard I feel like I’m not even sick anymore

Dessert and ponies! Will try my best not to purge :< 681.3 cals

Been distracting myself and haven’t purged yet so yay ??? Idk I mostly just feel guilty, but it’ll be worth it when I’m out of forced recovery

Wieiad 17/04/26 🤰 Est 3.1k cals +18.1k steps I am so full and sick rn I’m gonna explode. I better gain like 10lbs at my weigh in tomorrow

Food is literally coming up on its own rn im so fucking scared 😂