So angry with myself for binging like crazy and gaining a shit ton of weight when I was a teen. Makes me gain weight so fucking easy now and I can genuinely not eat anything without ACTUALLY getting fat

I just never said to you guys that my eye is fucked and I look like an idiot

Having dinner and being social is already my worst nightmare and then looking this horrible just made the experience awful but overall it was good YAY

Stomach hurts

I just want to rot inside

Im actually desperate to poop, I don’t want to weigh myself before I’ve pooped but lax ISNT WORKING ANYMORE

Have group today and I hate it so much plus my therapy session that I was gonna have right after got canceled so I’m just gonna have a horrible day

Group went to shit yesterday

Okay I’ve been eating too much lately and have absolutely not been losing I’m getting my shit together

I feel like I’ve just been gaining

I have a meeting with my group therapists today alone with my therapist and I’m dreading it so bad. I have plans after which I can’t cancel and o have a throbbing headache

I am so drained from both group and my relationship and I just want to disappear

Im really bad at being alone lately. Im so codependent and I hate it

I am chronically constipated to the point I will not shit without laxatives and they don’t even work for me anymore. Started drinking apple cider vinegar every morning and it’s helped TREMENDOUSLY. Biggest tip ever seriously

Got caught with one of the people in my group after the last session and I’m terrified to go in tomorrow because I don’t want to get confronted but I know we will be

I hate new years so much

I haven’t been this depressed in a really long time and I’m crashing

I need to get my community back here. I have the worst fucking hangxiety of my life I wanna kms

AHHH I JUST WANNA LOSE THE WEIGHT I GAINED

Im gonna do it okay. Im DOING IT