Beastie Boys - Futterman's Rule (Official Music Video) youtu.be/5Htxrm1YXSw?si… via YouTube

Poppy - New Way Out (Official Visualizer) youtu.be/OqVNYcaS-3E?si… via YouTube

Until they crack. Poppy - Bite Your Teeth youtu.be/TNYwhcthnF0?si… via YouTube

I've got 7 really great ideas for photoshop, and I open the damn thing, and stare, and close. It's fucking killing me. I need to find the part of me that stops, and utterly destroy it. But I suspect it's at the very core, wrecked and all.

Delusions aren't just for magicians

Huge breakthrough other day. I play Forza racing on PC. Realized while back I always subconsciously throw races against humans. Got angry. This past race, I won. Twice. I didn't throw it. Realized I like winning. I want to win. Contrary what i've convinced myself. Big step.

Hard time understanding why I need to exist. Seems like a punishment in of itself.

Oh fuck you twitter, because when I turn it up louder, an wrench out a breath, i'll surfacing, right in between the seconds when I

Maybe its a good thing I'm such a piece of shit fucking coward to not just end it. At least I can be of service to others, no matter how much it makes me want to put a knife into my neck.

So much I want to say do feel, but ultimately I'm going to stay in the same, misery is safe familiar comfortable, I know this devil, we're uneasy friends plotting each other's end, we're not victims but accomplices, like a hilt to blade.

1. Painted corners Twitter, and promises kept is a MDK through grief, pretend it's a comfortable grave of apathy, but it's a life support system of wishful thinking and the reality of frozen inaction, desperate for more time and terrified of progression.

You keep this in mind, Twitter. youtube.com/watch?v=wwvLlE…