@ex_angelCastiel /Everything/. I got Charlie killed and I'm going to lose Dean and I don't know where Cass is and I snapped at the kids..

@ex_angelCastiel Everything I do to help Dean goes /wrong/. He's right to blame me. He's right to want me dead. -looks at the floor-

@ex_angelCastiel But then I'll lose him to that mark. I won't have a brother anymore. I can't lose him, Cas! And the kids kept pestering +

@ex_angelCastiel +me asking where Cass is and I yelled at them...Alex won't come out of his room now.

@ex_angelCastiel I couldn't answer them when they asked about Cass...she hasn't checked in for weeks. Alex said he won't leave his room +

@ex_angelCastiel +until Cass is home. -shakes his head and wipes his tears-

@ex_angelCastiel I need her home -lets out a sob-

@ex_angelCastiel You don't either? What if she's dead, Cas? -panics a little-

@ex_angelCastiel You /hope/? -shaking- You /hope/ my wife isn't dead?

@ex_angelCastiel -breaks down crying- I n-need her.

@ex_angelCastiel I have to find you...have have to help me find her.

@ex_angelCastiel I don't know where to look... -shakes his head-

@ex_angelCastiel -shudders at the thought of her dead- But...do dead angels even get a heaven?

@ex_angelCastiel But angels..live in heaven anyway. So surely they can never...really die.

@ex_angelCastiel so if she were...I could still see her...all the kids could see her...except Mary.

@ex_angelCastiel like the rules would stop me. -rolls his eyes-

@ex_angelCastiel I have to find her... -gives him his phone- Watch the kids. Alex will call that phone if he needs help.

@ex_angelCastiel Don't let Mary eat too much pie...tell them I'm...you'll figure something out. -disappears-

-Breaks into heaven in search of @_AngelicCastiel, trying to lay low and not get noticed-

//Tried so long to keep this going but I can't. Deleting this account because no one gives a crap. All I get is rejection. I'm done.