⠀ i wonder what it is to yearn. ⠀

⠀ arms open , silently offering warmth for mama. ⠀

⠀ blinking hard. ⠀

⠀ good. they caught his signal , then. he wanted to see them. ⠀

⠀ he would. most often , he is serious and solitary but around mama allen , he can relax a little , holding onto them like a scared and needy child. ⠀ had he not always been , although he lacked a childhood at all ? or perhaps he was because of the fact. ⠀

⠀ i have blocked and reported an old friend for liking posts about throwing dead rats at kids and will be scaring him half to death promptly. i take the desecration of corpses very seriously , no matter the animal. ⠀

⠀who ⠀is ⠀this ⠀irresistible ⠀creature ⠀who ⠀has ⠀an ⠀insatiable ⠀love ⠀for ⠀the ⠀𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐝 .ᐣ

⠀ staring at the ceiling , half curled up and unmoving. he’s experiencing an ungodly tummy ache. ⠀

⠀ he’s hardly breathing , so as to not interrupt his stomach when it is grumbling slightly less. ⠀ he may need a bowl and some water but he cannot go and get if himself. ⠀

⠀ he hates the waiting game. ironically , he spends most of his time waiting. for what ? who knows ? but if need be , he will wait forever. ⠀ not for this though. he wants the ache and the gurgling to go away now. ⠀

if you want my bones， i shall give them to you. if you want my heart， then i will gladly hand it over.

⠀ what do i do ? 🧍‍♂️ ⠀

⠀ okay. ⠀ ( arms wide. warm hugs for mama incoming ! ) ⠀

⠀ ( he has to lean down to hug them but it’s no biggie. as he does , it’s gentle , as can be expected from him. ) ⠀ i want to. it’s been too long since i’ve seen her. ⠀

⠀ i would love to. ⠀ ( his expression is flat but it is sincere. ) ⠀

⠀ ( at least , by the way he looks at his little sister , it’s clear he loves her so so much. once she’s in his arms , he’s positive he’s not letting go for at least a little while. ) ⠀ who ever said you were allowed to get this big , hm ? ⠀

uneasy hearts weigh the most.