Trying to sleep bc I'm so tired but the mental hunger is keeping me wide awake 😭

Anyone who thinks Pilates isn't a proper workout isn't doing it properly 🥵

People with no self awareness infuriate me bc they have such peaceful lives whilst they cause problems for everyone around them. I think I'm just jealous of them tbh

Just wanna follow the Prahlad Jani diet tbh

In a very toxic relationship with sugar. Keep trying to leave but I always end up crawling back 😭

I need to get my shit together bc everything feels chaotic. - tidy my room - Pilates - go for a walk - meal prep - journal & food diary for therapy

The only way I can motivate myself to get stuff done is the fat J & iced coffee imma have after 😍

A very random pre workout snack

Olive oil has been such a fear but I've wanted to challenge it bc health. & I'm so glad I did, it makes food taste sooooo much better 😍

I'm struggling with eating enough during the day again. I keep pushing my meals back and eating late & idk how to get better at eating earlier it scares me 😞

Someone ik is the same BMI as me but they look sm bigger & now I'm so scared I have reverse body dismorphia 😳 help

I just wanna fully relapse this is all too much for me ffs I hate my body I hate everything

Might just go back to edtwt bc I feel like I just trigger everyone on here & loads of moots have stopped interacting since I went back to semi recovery & tbh Im feeling so shit abt everything I have the worst relapse urges since starting recovery

Never felt so alone & scared

The bpd is bpding today. I'm literally lashing out at everyone fuck

I'm not going to pressure myself tonight to fight urges and stress myself out. I think I'll just roll a J and sleep on it and maybe in the morning I'll be in a more rational headspace 😌

I think I need to take a break from sm. I'll be back but it's making my head worse I think. Take care guys ❤️