I’m genuinely scared that I will die due to lack of herd immunity.

There are four stages of a day off: 1: I will do so much stuff 2: Later I’ll do some stuff 3: Eventually I’ll do some stuff 4: Oh no

My therapist once explained that the reason you zone out in a towel after a shower, sit in your car long after parking, or mindlessly scroll at night isn't because you're lazy or unmotivated. It's because your nervous system is stuck in a functional freeze state. You can still

Sometimes I’m fine. And other times the fucking exhausting seeps out of every pore and I lash out.

People don’t care about you the way you care about them. And yet they’ll still blame you for being distant after being hurt time after time and not wanting to be hurt again.

I miss the days when all my meds fit in one drawer. Now they basically take up a whole furniture piece ugh

I feel so fricken sick. I’m at my breaking point. I can’t keep doing this. I can’t keep going like this.

Dream I was screaming in pain woke me up. Can’t tell if the pain is as severe irl or if my dream is still wearing off on me.

My stomach is killing me. Apparently we’ve came full circle and food hurts again. Hoping doc can help me Wednesday but. Not holding my breath.

Why is it that anytime you get weird symptoms your brain immediately screams YOURE PREGNANT!!! Like. No??? We both know I’m not???

I feel weird hoping for a tumor but here I am. It would explain everything and would be a relatively easy fix. If not it raises many more questions and problems.

Memory loss from deep depression and trauma doesn’t get talked about enough. People think it’s just sadness or being stuck in your head, but it goes way deeper than that. You forget conversations, names, whole chunks of your life—not because you didn’t care, but because you were

I’m in so much pain. I’m so tired of suffering.

Doc is now thinking it’s actually not a pheochromocytoma and actually just hyperadrenergic pots. Meaning. I’ll just feel like shit forever if that’s the case. And I… don’t get me wrong I want an answer but I want one that can be fixed in some way? Or managed?

what is it called when you can't take it anymore but you keep taking it

The pain is unreal. Idk why it’s so fricken nasty but omg.

Doctors office was no help. So now I’m at ER hoping for answers. The pain is unbearable.

At er with severe back pain. Have a bad feeling I got flagged for addict behavior due to the symptom being back pain… no IV or labs done so far…

Everyone says they are there for you. But being chronically ill puts stress on relationships and people don’t want to deal with you being sick constantly. They don’t want to hear how you’re doing. They just want you to lie and say you’re okay so they can talk about something else

MRI was clear. They have no idea what’s causing the pain. They are putting me on a steroid pack and sending me back to my other doctors. I’ve never had pain like this before.