sometimes you’ll be okay and suddenly an anxiety like a car crash overwhelms you in such a manner you are thrown back into the body of a defenseless toddler version of you hearing the sound of her parents’ screams for the first time

> You can't take that action. Your Melancholic Nature precludes it.

après toi le déluge

i need a book to make me shake and feel feverish like im in the process of expunging the rot of my soul from my body

i would watch an entire 3 hour spin off about sensei sergio i’m being so for real right now

Trop bizarre ce week-end on change d'heure alors que d'habitude on change de gouvernement

Georges Bataille on the lingering tense (I want to say "tensuality") of our time's "bound instantaneity"

Me reading the Goon Squad Harper’s piece

today+lavender latte + running in the rain (not pictured)

years of psychosocial damage would be undone if we collectively learned to navigate the internet with the mindset that No Absolutes Apply, Not Everything is About Me & ultimately Strangers Do Not Know the Particular Circumstances of My Life and thus Cannot Fix it or Diagnose Me

RIP dfw you would’ve loved writing a gooning essay for Harper’s

i’m still thinking of the harper’s article btw and how so many niche online communities run on doublespeak and cognitive self-rearrangement as devotional systems built to revere the very despair that created them. then again that is so intensely human

didn’t expect 2025 to be some kind of Bradburian hell. and yet

stopped monthly wrap ups & reading threads bc i’m consuming 10+ books at any given time + doing a lot of writing & cross referencing/actively working on parallels. but i should start a thread of quotes/specific stylistic choices that made go good god words were invented for this

dfw neil postman jg ballard harlan ellison aldous huxley phillip k dick david cronenberg jean baudrillard… the gooner article is just the tip of the iceberg