I'm just tired of seeing the cycles begin to repeat themselves, there is such thing as innocence. Whether people misbehavior be poorly since a minor has nothing to do with me in my opinion. I grew up affected by people that were more adult and I don't want that cycle...

I'm tired of communicating how obviously I still participate in my family, but I'm looking forward to getting my own family with my own rules. They just telling me all the work that it takes to be successful but it takes a lot more work to raise and help others lol

One thing about me is, I'm still trying to figure out my life because I do intend to be a good role model. I know people are constantly judging, but they happen to be prejudice in my eyes. I'm not trying to constantly fix with someone has to say when they probably thought briefly

I do get tense in relationship and drama instances, I can't just let things go and pretend it will be all okay. But one thing I've definitely learned is I'm not going to try to make sure somebody actually stays in a situation where even their peers are just fundamentals

All I know is that my roles are different to different people. I'm not always gonna be a friend and I'm not always going to be a caretaker...

I've just been wrapping up my thought process because I had a stomach ache and I have something to do but I drank a soda. Lol Someone that has lived with me in the last eight years knows that I don't like a dirty house and I don't like being spread thin. Don't sue me ✌️

I think it was awesome how I had friends and we changed together but moving out and finding different characters of people try their hardest to hang out but fail miserably is just intense. Being dirty/defensive isn't cool to me. I always thought I was different not segregated.

My experiences seem like people expect me not to be prissy, but I'm definitely not and I just don't even wanna deal with confrontation anymore. When people just pick on you, but they don't understand you It's weird. I think I'm saying I want to move forward.

Sometimes people that actively try to propose a love-hate relationship seem a little bit more appealing than somebody on their way down to diminish your character.. Truth is I barely want to talk to those types of people but the choices are low.

I just know that to be involved and associated with other people you can't make an entire situation about yourself and it's not about being right but also making sure that people treat you fairly. I'm not trying to be just as important as somebody else but I'm not always at fault

I can't stop the principle that when something negative happens, it's because of me. Deep down inside, I know more people than I could imagine would tolerate me if I could just be more positive and I don't lean into drama at all.

I wish people treated being somebody support system like a job and not the fact that you can change your loyalty to someone whenever you feel like it. I don't need to ask everyone for money or always ask for advice but I need help sometimes.

I don't aim to be the floater friend or family member that's just around conveniently. Hello, I can't change how people feel about yet there's somebody more than willing to tolerate me more than I have time for them so I would rather not neglect or reject people that like me

Literally, my short term goals are just re-focusing on myself, and trying to be the model I know I can be to the general public without fighting, or being taken advantage of.

I know I'm not necessarily a hostile and malicious person, so I don't feel like taking responsibility for how people are necessarily distraught in life. I have plenty of tools in life, but I feel like people choose to reject my reality and substitute their own #emotional

Anyway, I'm not necessarily naïve even a little bit and I just don't want to wait for something negative to happen if I can justify allowing myself peace and space.

I'm up late thinking of everything I would tell my bff if I had one like before. Lol non stop chit chat. It's taken years to adjust now I'm like well who wants to hear how every hour of my day is going. lol it's okay though 👍

Eating spicy wing stop and ranch. It's 6am here. I'm staying up late by drinking coffee, attempting to work out late at nights but sometimes I'll make do with stretching and eating the leftovers. I value any effort as long as I take my time, about 20 minutes 🤌🤌

Do you remember when you joined X? I do! #MyXAnniversary they're telling me 13 years ago ✌️

Happy Tuesday !