lovergirl officially wants me shes apparently just too gaypanicked to actually do anything and im too autistic to know context clues to make the first move so idk how this may work lmao

ive had a continuous anxiety attack for like 24hs at this point ive taken more anxiety meds than i ever had before helP

i feel like a horrible person bc my mum is so worried abt me not eating and visibly losing weight and all i can think abt is so you think im skinny????

this is exciting but i have no energy and no apetite bc of anxiety and indont think this is good actually. might consider recovery at some point maybe

my man broke up w me yesterday and i genuinely only want to kms

im so so so thankful for my mother. i havent rlly stopped crying abt my bf dumping me since he did and shes been an absolute blessing. she let me sleep with her, she washed my hair, she took me to the ER when i was having the worse anxiety attack ive had in years....

been having a horrible past few days and today ex and lover are having a date out and posting abt it and i feel like absolute garbage + i have to see them both on thursday and i might puke

happy bday to me and happy valentines to whoever is having a good one bc im spending the day crying abt my man celebrating w lover 🤪👍

saw ex yesterday and it wasnt as traumatic as i expected it to be but also hes a piece of shit and could like disappear from my life permanently fuck this man he hurt me so much

i took a pic at my grandmas today and i look SO SKINNY wtf ive gained a few lbs bc my mum has been staying home to make sure im okay and eating BUT that pic ??? it solved half my problems

last night i invited a friend ive wanted to fuck for literal YEARS and we FINALLY DID he spent the entire night hugging and kissing me and like being rlly sweet and then we AGGRESIVELY fucked as soon as we woke up lmao i never thought fucking a cis man would make me this happy

now vv important question does anyone know how many calories cvm has???

so since my ex is officially dating his lover and his lover is my friend and trusts me shes been telling me all the things hes doing to her and im like GURL GET OUT NOW BEFORE ITS TOO LATE I KNOOWW!!!! i need her to see theres so much better than him out there (like me) 😭😭

why had no one told me how fun it is to have tinder ????

she didnt, she decided to stick by him and stop being my friend 🤡🤡 at least i now have an iphone15 i guess

not pinterest recommending me to ask someone to join my thinspo board 🤡🤡

at fwbs house to fuck and he went partying last night so he just left to take a shit lol thank God weve been friends for 6 years bc hes been in there for at least 20mins now this man is fighting for his life 😭😭

got the roughest fuck of my life and now i have to act like a normal human being while i have dinner w my mum send help

so idk if i updated yall on this but ex and his lover are now dating, but her and i still follow each other everywhere and ive been tweeting lowkey offensive shit abt him/them/their relationship and SHES LIKING ALL OF THE TWEETS!???? like are they doing terribly or ????

ive gotten to a point where truly nothing makes sense. i do things to "take care of myself" and i go to the gym and i see friends but its all so senseless.... im genuinely thinking abt kms before the month ends