for yelling at MY daughter. I wanted to put the fear of god in him. But as I moved, @TheOriginalSOA caught my attention and told me (5/12)

to go to the store. Did he honestly think sending me to the store right now was a good idea? I wanted to say something, but instead (6/12)

I grabbed my purse and headed out the door, glancing back at Happy Lowman before I left. I knew @TheOriginalSOA was just trying to (7/12)

help. But my emotions were high and a trip to Lodi to be there for Alexis Walker and the others. I would be there. I headed to the (8/12)

only grocery store I knew would be open at this time of night. I parked and grabbed a cart and started walking up and down the (9/12)

aisles grabbing food, medical supplies and other things. As I was walking I saw toy cars that I thought Alexis Walker's son would (10/12)

like. I tossed them in the cart and headed for the register to pay for everything. i finally let the tears fall after leaving the (11/12)

store, sitting in my car. Not caring how i sounded I called @TheOriginalSOA to find out where i was heading. (12/12)

I heard @TheOriginalSOA tell the guys to get ready to go to Lodi. I knew what that meant. As I heard him say he had to go. I cracked (1/12)

a little smile and replied. "Okay babe. See you soon. Be safe." I hung up the phone and tossed it in my purse. Glancing at the bags (2/12)

in the back seat. I tried not to fall apart again. I leaned my head against the steering wheel and cried. Cried for the missed time (3/12)

with Alexis Walker, cried for the loss of Happy Lowman. He may have been a pain in my ass at times. But then most of the guys were. (4/12)

But he was still so much like one of my sons. I quickly wiped my eyes and made sure my makeup wasn't smeared all down my face in my (5/12)

rearview mirror and headed for Lodi. I tried to stay calm. but in truth I wasn't sure I could. My family was falling apart and for (6/12)

once I had no damn clue how to put it back together. I was supposed to be the strong one the one that gave my ol'man @TheOriginalSOA (7/12)

and my family their backbone when shit hit the fan. But here I was crying my eyes out like come crazy old bat. I silently cursed (8/12)

myself and turned on the radio to drown out my own thoughts. As I approached T.O. Cross's gate I held my breath and looked (9/12)

around. I wasn't sure which of his boys was at the gate because I rarely came here. I waited for something to happen. The gate to (10/12)

open or be told to leave. After a moment, the gate opened. I drove inside. I was way the fuck out of my element here. I sat in my (11/12)

car till I saw Kenny Winston, Ellie Winston and a few of the others I knew. I slowly slipped from behind the wheel. (12/12)