Talking to a trans girl who is actually giving birth. While it's amazing and cool. I keep thinking about how much I missed in life :( I had come to terms with it. But this is just a reminder. I'm happy for her but jealous:(

So today I got told my contract for my job was ending. And 2 hrs later the higher up frantically called me saying their was a mistake and that I got on the wrong list.... they are hiring me as a full time engineer. Omg. Crazy

Why do I constlantly feel inadequate and inferior? :(

How do I not care about people so much. I feel sometimes like I see the best in them, but they won't let it out. Demi sucks :(

Having difficulty getting motivated :(

Why do I always feel like #2. Like I can't make a connection, or it's always lesser. Feel like an imposter and failure :(

Whoever said it is better to have loved and lost, than never loved at all... can go fuck himself.

I feel like I can't create decent connections. I'm always shunted last. Sometimes I wonder why I bother.

Do you ever feel all alone even though you have lots of friends and people around you? How do I get over this feeling?

So, I guess I'm getting my ass wiped by 3 people now in chess games. Yaa. So exciting.

Being demiromantic and demisexual really seems harder than transition :(. Trying to figure out how to bottle it up :(

Darts and pool night.

Damn. Domme drop hitting me hard. So much fun but now so sad. Maybe I'm just to far behind on my e :(

I feel sad so either someone I know is in trouble. Or it's a domme drop from a fun weekend. Feel like I want to have hours of fluid conversation with people. But so many are quiet :(.

I don't know why but I just want to cry and be held :(

Feel like I'm becoming unhinged because I can't talk to certain people that I want to and I can't let all my feelings out because s***'s just complicated

Why do I feel so alone and empty even with so many friends and partners :(.

I hate that I feel like a second class trans will because I've had bottom surgery and I don't have a dick

I'm not happy anymore and I don't know what to do. It's not my transition it's more my life, the world, I don't feel as important to others as they are to me. And I can't change most of it :(