Me when 1 day of fasting doesn't make me 10 BMI points lower

survived another grueling anxiety ridden day (it's only noon)

I can either eat quinoa, continue my fast, have a celsuis, get those potato wedges from pita pit or just go to sleep even tho I'm 2 weeks behind. what if I just shot myself??

threw everything that was gonna spoil in a pan for today's omad🍅🥬🍄‍🟫

chat what to do if ur pVrge splashed into ur eye and now it's red, swollen and runny

ate a slice of bread and it wasn't worth it, it's never worth it

i see my pyschiatrist tdy omfg I'm so nervous it's 3am and I can't sleep

im so close to my ugw wtf

what happens after u reach ur ugw??

reached my ugw tdy so starbies omad <3

omg guys 😭😭😭😭 did u know that when u push everyone away they actually 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 stay 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 away 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

"i like my girls thick" WHAT DO U WANT FROM ME

im not skinny enough to recover

I can't wait to be bmi 16

I've realized that i do in fact not want to recover i fear i will never be free from mental illness and id probably end up taking my own life

my grandma smiled and said she was happy to see my eat all my food, recovery can be beautiful <3

things that happened while in recovery: was able to finish first yr of medical school, no more chronic bad breath, boobs, no more heart palpitations and memory loss, i broke up w my gf, avoided summer inpatient treatment