Your rationalization is flawed at best and your subject in heart is despondent The quips you've pronounced that pretend to be in jest just serve to hide the true absence of content

Better half a century passed on later, thought I’d be the next curator of this story. Fifteen months, not faltered once. Victorian dunce turned pico-luminary. This is scary.

But I won’t be split in two; won’t be him or you. We will be combined, whether that be dead or alive.

But every time I’ve hurt you – or at least tried to - you’ve laughed and smiled instead.

The pain I feel is something real; a constant state of yearning.

Imagine a world with me, filled with joy and serenity. Anger, pain, dissipates. Do it before it's too late.

There are no secrets anymore. I’ve laid them all out on the floor. They’re all for you.

Thirty hours each, with minimal outreach.

And maybe, in time I'll consolidate my mind, and see there's plenty of joy to find. The truth that's beneath the lie, that one day, I truly will be fine.

Just how many times can I toe the line? Does everything look fine? Am I gonna meet the deadline?

I'm feeling hopeless and worthless, becoming numb so it hurts less.

I sat there entranced, entangled in every word that you'd say.

Both these hearts are fading A cardiac arrest is waiting And I'm not much for painting But there's no more time for negotiating

And sure the ends don't justify the means. But what's done is done, so have some beer, have some fun while the night is young.

You played Dr Jekyll so I played Mr Hyde. And doctor I think I am finally me.

They’re happenstance of consciousness. What do they think this is?

It was sorrowful and stark. But it always seemed to miss the mark. Every goddamn lyric seemed to be twisted, creepy and dark.

My mind's playing tricks on me. Bringing into question the definition of sanity. And what really constitutes as agony. (Do you fear me?) My coping mechanisms keep on failing me.

ooc: o7 was a good run. i’ll see abt alternatives to using cbdq but not guarantees

ooc: i am still so sad abt this 😭