//Might remake and clean up my pinned later to get rid of the ugly “deleted tweet” stuff, but there we are. Full Timeline, posted.

I’m sorry Daisuke 😔

everyone’s gonna abandon me once they realize how fucked up and ruined i am and they’ll hate me as much as i hate me. i will fix this by ghosting and avoiding and isolating and pushing them away and leaving first so no one can do that - super normal and well adjusted person

The D in December actually stands for dissociation. As in I'm about to dissociate this entire month away.

//Projecting my disassociation onto Curly-

Sitting by the window, watching the gently falling snow.

//Bumping this because I finished rewriting- Same link 😌

i'm sorry i'm the one you love

⠀ ⠀ "i want to be happy but something inside me screams that i do not deserve it." ⠀

you're a mess of good intentions gone wrong. you strike a match on yourself to keep others warm， and now the whole world is on fire.

I SHOULD BE 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐃. BUT I AM NOT.

i deserve your hatred. i do not mind if you hate me.

Making mac and cheese at 3am because he’s lost all control of his life.

i will always have nightmares of that day. no matter how much time has passed，i will always remember. the nightmares will never allow me to forget. i will never allow myself to forget.

<— Will refrain from calling his single cup of coffee “boy dinner”

//I love that picture of Anya, she is silently judging me-

He’s gonna get bonked 😔

Accepting the bonk, bowing his head in shame 😔

⠀i became good at pretending. i became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. and sometimes, when i did a really good job of pretending, i even fooled myself.