Recovery is so difficult oh my god- Something really bad happened so I want to cut so badly, but I really do want to get better and I don't want to fall back into the sh loop especially since my boyfriend would definitely end up seeing it and I don't want to hurt him or anything-

I just love it when I'm so anxious that my entire body feels like it's being frozen and burned with hot water at the same time-

Nvm 💀 Boyfriend gone because of things out of my control again- istf I'm just cursed at this point I'm actually so unlucky. Bad shit just keeps happening to me for no reason and happiness gets ripped away from me as soon as I catch a glimpse of it. I hate my life please kill me.

I feel so disguisting. I want to rip my skin off.

Why must I jump into love and act so clingy and desperate instantly? I don't care if I feel used and under-appreciated. I don't care if I get hurt. I just need someone. I need to feel that happy again. Why did it all get ripped away from me just as soon as I felt happy as always?

It turns out that having things that I love being ripped away from me because of things out of my control makes me appreciate the things that truly matter so after everything, I'm still staying clean because I'm somehow quite happy damn-

Me still staying clean and keeping it together even after most people that I know put me through so much shit all at the same time recently made me have an episode where I felt superior to everyone around me- I'm never usually like that wtf that was so weird 😭

I was keeping it together for so long while going through so much shit and staying strong for everyone around me that when my best friend said that they're proud of me, I just burst out crying because I realised how difficult and draining it has been and I felt so loved and seen-

I was so drunk last night that I thought that security man wanted a gulp of my vodka so I willingly passed him the bottle and felt so betrayed when he took it away from me and then threw it out :(

So um... I'm officially homeless- that's fun

This guy gave me a blunt worth of weed for free and his dealers number because I let him use my lighter and we talked about our life together- wtf 😭

About 7 different people in the last 15 hours told me that my life is literally like a movie and I'm the main character and they don't know how tf I'm still alive- wtf is my life, man 😭

My mental health has become so much better ever since I became homeless even though I'm more traumatised because of how lucky I've been after that with people helping me out and all and weird ass fun shit that keeps happening to me- this is so peak

Threw out my razor blades because my bestie told me that they'd throw out theirs if I threw out mine- healing and recovery era has begun 🔥

I fucking love vodka and weed.

Having about 7 different people simp over me and turning one of them bi was not what I expected to happen over the past 4 days, but it sure was a confidence boost damn 🔥

Got a partner- feeling good 🔥

Almost lost my best friend- I'm so tired now I just wish I could hug it all away

Being homeless and vibing with another homeless friend is kinda fun I'm ngl

Haven't been on here in so long- Life is finally really good. It does get better.