i have been . . recon isn’t exactly easy .

i try my best .

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#. i wish i has motivation to be on here

i’m convinced i’m at the verge of going insane .

. . . yet here i am , not that i’m insane 𝒂lready . but i feel it coming .

oh , well—— i think the judgement people have towards me is getting to me .

i know , i typically don't listen to them , but . . sometimes , the voices in my head are much louder than usual . i appreciate the offer , though . maybe i'll consider it , when pigs fly .

no one will know the violence it took to become this gentle.

i miss my boyfriend .

oh , it actually worked——

* she shook her head , hugging him gently and nuzzling softly . nothing , i missed you .

* she smiled a little , giving him a soft kiss to the cheek . have you been busy ?

well , yes . you know how it is . .

that’s—— that would be quite challenging .

a drink or two sounds nice .

christmas . . . i sort of forgot about it .

i became bitter and untouchable. i craved affection but the mere thought of someone caring made my stomach turn.