i could never ever be with a guy skinnier than me …

what i ate today: - bell pepper 40 cals - 6 strawberries 23 cals - blueberry rx bar 180 cals - some jelly beans ~105 cals - bagel chips 147 cals - 2 tiny slices of pizza 312 cals - like 2 bites of halo top ~50 cals total: 856 cals 🤷‍♀️ i tried to overestimate on some things 😣

going for a 3 mile walk outside and to the gym after to hit abs + incline walk and stair master sooo hopefully this burns a bit of my cals from today cuz ik 800-900 isn’t that bad but like ugh it feels horrible and i feel so guilty 💔

AYYY

i love grunge jenny humphrey but ugh she was so pretty and dolly in season 1

rewatching gossip girl season 1 and i miss this serena she was so likeable 💔

crashing out because my sister is naturally bmi 15/16 and eats more than i do 😀 #unfair #killme #ihatelife

weighing yourself after a fast only to find out there’s barley any difference

maybe in another universe i’m born naturally skinny and tiny with a fast metabolism

starting anxiety meds tmr i hope i don’t gain weight but hopefully it helps with emotional eating too

me after telling my friends i can’t go with them for food bc my doctor told me to eat better for my stomach issues (ts is a COMPLETE lie) 😂😂

i have actually never felt fatter in my life holy shit

hoping i relapse 10x harder

all i want for christmas is bmi 17 💔

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