i just wanna be happy. not confused, not hurt, not stressed, just happy

sometimes, silence is the loudest way to say you’ve had enough

“you handled it so well” nah i didn’t, i lost my spark, felt crazy, distanced myself from everyone and hated myself

My therapist told me: “When a person grows up feeling unseen, they learn to love by over-giving. They pour into everyone else, hoping that, one day, someone will finally pour back into them. So they become the care taker. The fixer. The one who shows up, even when no one shows

my ICK is i tolerate people & things until i'm very much resentful towards them

if i love you, i tolerate way more than i should.

to be so understanding and never understood is draining.

sometimes i miss the bond but then I remember the disrespect

I take responsibility when I'm wrong, but I will not apologize for responding to disrespect. If you start the fire, do not pretend to be the victim.

i hate feeling like the only way to protect myself is being alone

my unhealthy defense mechanism is to shut down and stop talking if i feel like i’m being misunderstood or disrespected. i don’t like repeating myself and i don’t like the feeling like I’m not being heardl

realizing how much disrespect i accepted just because i wanted love.

soft launching my disappearance

nobody talks about the angry stage of healing. the rage you feel when you realize how much and how long you were taken advantage of. the absolute disgust you feel towards those people that mislead you. it comes in waves, sometimes you’ll feel healed and then it suddenly hits you

I see no point of tripping anymore.. it is what it is.

tbh I’m so unappreciated & that’s fine