i fear that this longing will last forever. i put on a brave face and pretend it doesn't bother me， but it does. it does.

Playing his guitar and quietly singing, “But you know, you know, you know.. If I’m bein’ honest, I couldn’t tell you this is all I wanted. . I struggle sleepin’ cause the house feels haunted. .” 🎶

i have never been allowed to be holy, i have never been forgiven for wanting.

⠀am i something you’re ashamed of .ᐣ is it such a dirty thing to be loved by someone like me .ᐣ

He wouldn’t mind a day with just them.

what doesn’t kill you leaves disfiguring scars. what doesn’t kill you fills you with paralyzing self—hatred. what doesn’t kill you makes you afraid for the rest of your life. what doesn’t kill you might make you kill them.

i wish you wouldn't look at me like that. ᅠ╱ᅠ like what .ᐣ ᅠ╱ᅠ i don't know. like you could love me.

why would anyone love a monster? ╱ who are you to decide who is worthy of love?

it is so much safer not to feel， not to let the world touch me.

Tch. . sap.

. . Soft grumbling.

⠀' you know you can't protect everyone , right?' ╱ 'i know. but i have to try.'

. . . Concerned silence.

“I wish I didn’t have ears.”

“. . I’m going to go smoke, you and mom have fun.”

And he’s leaving.

Patching himself up again with shaky hands. . Even after all this time, this fated curse doesn’t get any easier

come here and hold me， make me feel better. promise me i'm good enough， tell me you can love me， even the worst of me. even the worst of me， even the worst.

you're never going to give up on me, are you .ᐣ