So far my cats have used my electric heat pad more than me 😂

It’s so hard that since I was diagnosed with my disability, “friends” I’ve known for over ten years completely cut all contact with me, literally not a single message to check in to see if I’m okay. I can go a long time not posting so as far as they’re concerned, I could be dead

Idk I’m just really sad that I’ve ended up going through this alone apart from my mum, being in literal constant agony is so unbelievably difficult, when a flare up goes on for weeks without a break, I feel like I’m going insane, I just wish one person cared about me coz I don’t

This is literally my life

How has my mum bumped into Nigel Farage down the local high street? 😂 I thought she was joking when she told me “I said hello” not quite the words I would have used but okay lmao

I’m not on here much, I don’t have loads of friends, but just wanted to let people know the reason I’ve not been active. I had a serious medical emergency a few weeks ago, I’m still coming to terms with what happened, I can share more if anyone’s interested but yeah I’m not great

It’s hard to talk about, but I feel like I need to even if no one reads, to cope with the anxiety. I recently had a medical emergency, basically I wouldn’t be typing this if mum didn’t used to be a nurse. I will add to this when I can but reliving it makes me panic so I need time

So basically, I had a medical emergency I mentioned a bit. Long & short of it is, I had a brain bleed and died. Like actually died, cardiac arrest. My mum was a nurse, walked in to me unresponsive & did cpr, helicopter came, paramedics were just medically inducing coma, I woke up

Kinda hard to fit it in when you’re limited on characters but if anyone gives a fuck, just letting you know I died and came back to life, doctors say it could happen again, that’s as far as we know so 👍🏻 had a very stressful phone call with doctors today, I’m a nervous wreck

Not one of you checked on me after my heart literally stopped and I typed it like 3 times. I’m honestly heartbroken like I’m that shit of a person people don’t notice if I live or die. All I got is mum and if she didn’t do cpr I wouldn’t be here, how do I even thank her for that?

I feel so alone in this big wide world, I see other people just getting on with things and I just don’t understand how? I admire it, but I really do wish I could fill up the empty void in my chest with friendship and conversations instead of being stuck here with my heart hurting

Anyone online? Been through a shit situation but I need to try and move on with my life, either by making new friends or speaking to old friends. Lemme know if anyone fancies a chat 💟

I turned on at 9 mins and we had a goal, what?? I’m glad it’s not the other way around though #engsen

Rip Ozzy, have such good memories of listening to black sabbath in my teens. Their music helped to get me through some really tough times and singing Changes with my dad in the car helped to put into words how I was feeling. Black sabbath have always had an impact on my life 💔

Coming back from the dead to say look at two of my cats who every night come for a run on the grass, no leads, no running away, so so well trained (all credit to my mum, she’s like a cat whisperer)

This time I didn’t actually die lol I just forgot this app existed

Can’t sleep, have a couple y important question: if someone only has one leg and they use it to launch themselves into the to the air, would it be called hopping because it’s leaving and landing on one leg or, jumping because all legs available are being used to leap and land?

Only have to make it to April without dying and I’ve done better than last year, the bar is low low like on the ground low 😂