Why fear the way?

I don't chase, nor do I attract. I acquire.

I like putting people on pedestals because they need to learn the higher you go, the longer the fall.

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Ada temen cewekku, kiri, diem-diem benci banget tiap kali tau aku sering pake AAVE. Lady, I can choose to learn and utilize whatever vernacular I want. Besides, don't you think that your way of thinking is inherently colonialist and discriminatory? Ye must ponder, I sayeth.

You're in her DMs and I'm in her underperforming computer system. We are not the same.

These past few days taught me a lot about availability. When you always get in your own way to be available towards certain people, your worth consistently decreases until you drain yourself empty. It's not that I shouldn't care. I should just care more carefully.

No matter how much I make in a week, no matter how many friendships I build in a month, I will forever be a failure in my own house. I will be an insubordinate firstborn son in my mom's eyes. It's something I've been learning to accept, lately. Food for thought before I rest.

Menyenangkan? Enggak lah, anjing. Tapi malam ini aku sadar bahwa, bila begitu adanya, aku perlu push through aja. Lu miskin lu kaya, lu tetep gagal. Lu sedih lu seneng, lu tetep mengecewakan. Lu lapar lu kenyang, lu tetep gak bisa bersyukur. Mau pilih yang mana jadi, Ilalang?

Hehe. Capek euy, ya Allah. Tolong peluk aku lagi dalam tidurku. 🙂

Why would I watch porn if life's been fucking me in the ass?

Baru kali ini kesusahan tidur. Bittersweet deh.

Kemarin dapet 2,7. Sekarang udah ditransfer, naek ke 3,4. Naon maksud ieu, Gusti? 😭

Malam ini lagi dong, diingatkan!

There's something sick and beautiful about knowing that you will suffer regardless. 🥰

Enggak pernah nyangka akan bilang ini, tapi aku kangen keributan dan KDRT dan piring yang dipecahkan dan tangan yang dibantingkan. Karena penerima sakit dan sesaknya bukan aku.

Found a table filled with seven studs.