If I was as heartless as I'm made out to be I could fuck your world up very easily but because I fucking love you and trying here I won't

6 am and I lie here thinking of you

"You'll be okay" he said. I'm obviously not okay. I haven't been okay. But that's alright it's nothing new.

He isn't the one to bash for this.I'm the one who fucked it up. Don't say shit to him. It isn't his fault I'm a worthless piece of shit.

He did the right thing by leaving me. I'm nothing. I couldn't make him happy. He deserves to be happy. And leaving is his happiness i guess.

God do I miss this.. the things I'd do to turn back time and be good enough..

But.. damage is done.. I'll never be the same.. never love again.. never trust again..

If it wasn't for the fact he'd be right behind me I'd been done gone having him here and not mine is better than gone for good & I love him

7:22 am still no sleep in a few days still crying still shaking still beating myself up still wishing I was good enough

Just hearing "I love you too" gives me slight hope for the future..

Its so hard leaving that on read but I want it to be the last thing he's said to me

Gonna be kinda inactive both here and Kik. I need some time to think. And try to cope with what's happened. I still love him very much & +

+nothing will ever change that. I won't move on. I won't get over him. And I won't be okay. I just need to find a way to cope with all of it

So until then or until he's got his phone back. I'll remain distant and kinda inactive.

I'm sorry that I hurt you

The Hoobastank - The Reason Will always be my song to Elliot

I miss him so much

To anyone who Is close to Tylor he won't be replying because he Is in icu due to a bad wreck

To those who are close to Tylor. He's okay. He's able to talk. He'll be on kik for a bit of you want to talk to him. He's staying off here.