Going to Fkn hospital today. If anyone actually sees this … pls manifest a really really really short stay for me 🙏🥺

Arm still looks fat/ bulgey. But I haven’t been able to do this since I was at least 36kg. But am now 38.5 ish. Maybe higher. I am beyond confused.

IP 🏥 update: No major PTSD issues so far Barely medically cleared. Bloods were fucked. Idk if will be tubed. They want to but would have to move me to medical for that - which is worse for my other issues. Hopefully all goes well tomorrow

IP 🏥 update. Got a Fkn pressure sore. Weight same despite proper rehydration = confusion. No Ngt atp 🥳 My cat is stressed bc I’m not home. Apparently is throwing up and won’t leave my bed 🥺🩷

Am glad it’s the weekend. Just had meal plan increase and I am not keen. I am already so sick of eating!! It’s fucking exhausting and I haven’t been able to get any uni stuff done while I’ve been here. Going to see if I can be discharged next week. 🤞🏼

Was hoping for discharge this week. They aren’t letting up. I just wanna go home. I’m over it. My degree is in jeopardy

Just ate 3 Fkn protein bars in the space of an hour. RIP 🪦 my stomach. And I’m mad at myself cause now I still gotta have 2 Fkn supplements and dinner and supper today.

Honestly thought I’d be able to get through an admission w/o NGT. 😭🤦🏽‍♀️

Ineffectively hiding from my nurse in my bathroom bc I just don’t wanna have to deal with her… or food today. Like can I not just have a day break from it? Ugh fuck. I just want to be alone in my lil underwater cave.

I want out asap I gotta get uni stuff done But also gotta BP But also don’t want to But also want to sort out digestive issues and seizure stuff. But I need to go home and move on w my life

Srsly guys wwyd? 🥺

I miss my bmi 14 legs

SO confused … Left - right = now 39 kg, July 2024 ~38 kg, jan 2024 41kg Usually I can’t get my finger around my upper arm until I’m 36kg I’m SO confused.

Gen hate other ED patients in hosp sometimes. Don’t ask about my weight, don’t tell me you’ve lost 14kg in a week when Ik that’s improbable & you’d be on medical ward if that is the case. It’s not a game. I’m over it. I don’t want to die… just don’t think I can get better.

IP 🏥 update: was really hoping to be discharged this week 😖 I’m so Fkn behind at uni. Somehow my weight has gone down. I’m using twice as much insulin as I was at home- or more. I’m getting like 1,600 cals/ day and my BMR is like 1,100 max What the actual fuck

IP … still. FUCK. I want out. I’m exhausted and I’m sick of eating. It hurts. They keep moving the discharge date. I wanna give up so bad!!!

Can’t study in here. So did these mad 3D jigsaw puzzles.