would you leave me 、 if i told you what i've done .ᐣ ／ and would you leave me 、 if i told you what i've become .ᐣ

because it's so easy to say it to a crowd ／ but it’s so hard 、 my love 、 to say it to you all alone .

so the fell star consumes even the darkness itself . . .

i am falling ／ i am fading ／ i have lost it all . . .

REMEMBER THIS ； I AM THE SCAR THAT THIS WORLD 𝑵𝑬𝑬𝑫𝑺 .ᐟ

i have yearned for someone to understand me . and now that i finally have someone who does 、 i'm terrified . why 、 tell me why 、 must it disturb me so much to want your comfort .ᐣ why does it scare me to finally be seen . . . .ᐣ

i need to dig my claws into your flesh . i need to sink my teeth into your neck . i have this primal desire to mark you . to devour you whole . does this make me a monster .ᐣ would you love a monster .ᐣ

i love you 、 but even so 、 something in me is still terrified of you . i'm sorry .

you just don't know it yet 、 but you love me and i love you the same .ᐟ

come now .ᐟ is it really all that MORTIFYING that i want you to tear my flesh apart and devour my heart .ᐣ is that not the greatest act of LOVE that i can grant you .ᐣ i love you so 、 sooo much .ᐟ why won't you accept my love .ᐣ

one day we'll have a pretty wedding and i'll be your everything .ᐟ

imagine building the " perfect cage " 、 only to find yourself locked in it . . . with me .

i really just want you all to myself . i need you in my maw 、 my mind 、 my skin . you are all i want and need . i want to be one with you 、 i need you in ways i could only describe as morbid . i might just be losing my head .

MORE AWAKE INSIDE MY DREAMS ／ WAS THAT REALLY YOU NEXT TO ME .ᐣ

I AM A LAMB WITH A BLOODY MOUTH 、 FOR I BIT THE WOLF THAT TRIED TO DEFILE ME .

oh mother 、 mother dearest . i can barely remember your face 、 not even your gentle hands . . . wait 、 did you even try to hold me when i was young .ᐣ did you .ᐣ

i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . i'm trying . I'M TRYING . I PROMISE I'M FUCKING TRYING . I'M DOING MY BEST AND IT'S NOT ENOUGH .

i may be a doe ／ but my knees will not tremble .

you are the hole in my head ／ you are the space in my bed ／ you are the silence in between ／ what i thought and what i said .

i just wanted to feel alive . i only ever wanted a reason to not feel so meaningless . is that too selfish of me .ᐣ