im so scared that my organs are covered in fat

i might be delusional but i think my thighs are getting slightly more muscular, but im happy with it as long as they don’t get any thicker

i keep forgetting eds shrink ur brain but some of u never fail to remind me

i keep gaining and losing the same 5lbs im #worstana ever

im not tracking on valentines day idc im gonna have a good time with my bf and this eating disorder is Not gonna stop me

eating disorders shrink YOUR brain. not mine.

i hate being lightheaded so bad

i wish i knew what i actually fucking look like to everyone else

pacing around my room but making it fun by wearing cute clothes and pretending im auditioning for americas next top model

i keep opening and closing the fridge as if some zero calorie buffet is gonna magically appear

this and a food scale

happy valentines day everybunny, im not tracking today and im really nervous but also really excited. im gonna allow myself to enjoy today and the chocolate that comes with it

this turned into 3 days of not tracking i gotta get my shit together Immediately.

i wanna be a journal girlie so so bad but like wtf do u even put in a journal ??? “dear diary” fuck that

everybody always talks about the period hunger but ive never heard anyone talk about the pms hunger

ive been worst ana for the past week i need to be taken to the vet and put down

IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*IM SOOO FAT *i keep eating*

i have 3 lighters in my jacket pocket and none of them are mine