this hunger feels like someone is stabbing me in the stomach ong

this is how i feel about yall

i’ve so inactive lately i’m sorry moots i’ve been barley making it through the week 😭😭

chat, i highkey have a lot of arm fat should i kill myself

okay so today my mom gave me a lecture in the car about how i need to eat and i cannot keep avoiding it who cheered

i just bawled my eyes crying sobbing in the car in front of my mom after my therapist appointment someone needs to shoot me in the head 57 times

i lowkey feel like nobody fw me anymore

hi i tried to stop doing my shii but starving just feels so good, it feels so safe and right idk why or how to explain it to someone who ain’t disordered but i just feel safe when i’m starving, can’t gain weight, can’t look bigger

hoping all of my moots remember me because i was dead for a few weeks

beer calories don’t count tonight (it bloats me so bad tho)

chat what if i said i’ve been binging the past days

first day on the new job and they had a birthday cake for another employee and everybody was talking to each other and i was just there like

i’m back, to the moots who never unfollowed me, y’all will get your gw by the end of the month trust

every time i relapse i have to get over that awkward phase of getting used to starving again and there’s always that mark when hunger starts to settle and i can’t eat and i’m literally crashing out and the most minor inconvenience is making me consider suicide

and also just like, someone in the gc just sent the digital cam photos and i look so fat i could actually hang my self up right now and in already having a bad day and i feel so disgusting

probably could never hang myself because i’m ti heavy for this ropes, that picture is gonna settle in my mind for AT LEAST a good 5 years

my darling boyfriend called my chubby last night should i kill myself in front of his house or what

just asked my unemployed mom if she was planing on taking a job soon and she said “i’m never going back to a corporate job, im gonna focus on my small business” well there goes college