I also got kicked out of a discord today for posting a meme. Outside of the creator, I was the oldest member there and a mod booted me. I didn’t even get a warning or told why.

Doc: I want to give ya 1 of 2 meds. 1 can cause depression, the other liver issues Me: well I have depression, so option 2! Doc: that may also cause depression Me: well, prob less than the other Drug Notes: It has the highest rates of depression, anxiety, and suicide ideation

Seems no one even noticed or cared Ril is gone. I had planned originally just to have it be a break and bring her back. But right now maybe the char should just stay gone.

When do I surrender?

How do I take someone serious who states they like to RP with me but never interact with me? At this point I feel it’s a fucking lie and get depressed as hell.

I deleted Aurin for a short mental break. The plan was to bring her back in a week or so. But now as I can’t sleep and keep getting more depressed I wonder if I should just keep it that way.

Perhaps it’s time to fully shut 𝔸𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕟 𝕄𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕠𝕥 down

I’m trying No Game No Life. What the hell!?

Sweet. I can bring back my skill drain Gks.

When ya have no posts but Twitter says ya have 322.

Back to thinking… do I just delete Aurin? Seriously at this point I think only one person would even notice.

I don’t think Twitter knows what “see less often” means. I’ve been doing this for the same person’s posts for over a week!

Someone follows my NSFW account Then gets at me for they don't like NSFW accounts 🤔

I’ve never seen someone get upset and demand I delete posts for quote-tweeting their pin Until now.

Saw a writer tag pop up today if someone who I use to be very close with. And then they just vanished away and dunno why So now after being up nearly 48 hours I’m still not sleeping because I’ve gotten all depressed not over just them but other people who’ve gone away 😥😥😥😥😥

I mean some fights happen. Others just vanish. But the ones that hurt most are those ya know are still around, but that they just stopped talking with ya. And ya don’t know why.

Fuck. Need something to listen to. At this rate my mind now is racing all over the place making sleeping hard. I know they say listening to stuff is bad for sleeping, but it’s useful to me to help focus my mind on something other than the repair pit that my mind can be

Fucking hell I’m moving and finally got my old roommate to say they’d get all the stuff they left behind today after work. Then they apparently went home and “maybe tomorrow” May just give all their shit to Good Will. They moved out nearly 2 years ago after all

So what to do? Someone apologizes for being an ass on another account then barely speaks to me. Last couple times I try? They give the impression that they don’t want anything to do with me (again) Nearly a month goes by and suddenly they messaging me… how should I act?

I keep forgetting about this account. Until Twitter be like “check out this tweet because fuck you.”