gentle

second day relapsing i feel so weird it feels so nostalgic and i’m not even going crazy i ate 1,6k kcal yesterday and 1,7k today so it’s soooo chill but i still feel nostalgic #edtwt

i know damn well that my relapse is so bad and i cannot do that but it’s something i don’t have any control over im just trying to accept my fate at this point. i’m always gonna feel bad at some point and will have a need to lost all the weight back. #edtwt

the best part about having ed is that lying ahh feeling that u acc have control over sth in your life. u choose to eat or to not eat. #edtwt

i just want to say dumb shit there cause i don’t feel safe enough to tell anyone irl that i relapsed

this day was ok

i took a shit so big that i feel 10kg lighter bro

be honest does your disorder makes you focus on your school more??? since you need to distract yourself. your grades got better or worse? #edtwt personally i remember that before my recovery when i was at my lowest i was an amazing student

i ate sm #edtwt

WELDOME BACK 💓💞💞💗💓💓💘💓💖

edtwt “locking in” on the first of every month

me after eating like a normal human being and calling it a binge

this is my first fast ever i’ve never fasted i ate 300kcal per day for a month back in a day but never ever fasted #edtwt

brooo i weighted myself today and it was 66kg thank god i started fast today i need to lock in fr #edtwt

what happened with my 45kg in my prime brooooo i hate recovery 21kg weight gain is insane #edtwt

going strong #edtwt

never give up never what? #edtwt

64,4kg today 2kg of water down i miss my body from my prime #edtwt

ended fast at 48h ate 636 now #edtwt