sobbing over the fact that i have an eating disorder and it will never go away and i’m too fat to recover i dont deserve it i’m not underweight i’m borderline overweight according to bmi and yet i’m still tired nauseous in pain and so exhausted i hate my life

I hate how weight fluctuates sm like boy jus tell me how much o actually weigh

16 month fast….

imagine being both pretty AND skinny

I've already eaten 900 cals and I don't plan on eating anymore. But I was just told in like 2 hours we are gunna go out and get HSP. Idek what to do. We NEVER get hsp. And i wanna have a bit but idk if should let myself have some. Should i??? Just for tdy? Idkk

I’ll never recover from this 💔

me when someone says something funny on edtwt so i laugh but then i realise we are all mentally disordered and nothings actually funny

whats something that can actually motivate me and actually make me fully lock in with wl like without there being days where i sometimes eat like 1.2k cal or like more and stay under 800 again like what can i actualyl do like

like its lowkey easy to not eat but as SOON as i go into the kitchen im fucked. someone lock me out of there thanks

i wanna stop my brain from drifting off and figuring out what i should eat the next day like bitch eat nothing you dont want anything like i actually dont want to eat i hate eating bvyrh

please tell me how you’re terrified too of ur cw right now

I needa be bmi 15-16 so bad

the dream of being so skinny that everyone is worried about me

Idk why but when i see ppl eating a big bowl of broccoli it looks so appesiting lije lowkey give me broccoli

Omad scary cuz whag if it turns out not being omad.

I shouldnt be scared abt going over my calorie limit at events if I just don't let myself go there. What's there to be scared abt if I just don't surpass my limit. Just don't donitbro

when i get to my ugw there are so many people i dont want to see me at it because ik its gunna be so annoying like what will i even do