○ SINGLE ○ TAKEN ● IDK WTF IS GOING ON

[ Shadow sighed , flopping down onto the grass completely . He stared at the sky as he tried to relax for a change . ] I know ... you all constantly remind me of that . Sometimes I wonder why you even bother . [ It's not like he deserved any of it . ]

you're not a monster， i said. but i lied. what i really wanted to say was that a monster is not such a terrible thing to be.

I know you care .. [ He did , and he cared about all of them too . Even if it was hard to admit . ] I guess I just can't understand why ? I don't know . It never made sense ... not with Ma-maria and definitely not with any of you . [ He glared at the sky ]

That infuriating sound ... Please Rouge , 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙥 .

I bring nothing but pain to those who surround me . I do make a difference , but at what cost ? Sometimes all the effort doesn't seem worth it at all — and I wonder if this is what Maria would've wanted for the world or even for me .

i know of a man who never gave up even when he was surrounded by nothing but despair.

Most of the year , humans are driven by greed or conflict . But for one day , they choose peace . It’s a fragile sentiment... but I suppose it has its merits . They exchange gifts , put up a tree with decorations and spend their time with loved ones , or something ..

She is beautiful .

A challenge ? Please . This will be a warm up at best .

[ He met her gaze , his eyes softening slightly . Her words most certainly meant something to him , and it did help after all . ] Maybe... but , [ Shadow sighed , looking away ] I don't know , I think she wouldn't even recognize me . I was different on the ark ...

i've never once regretted saving you.

Who the hell is Jiren ?

but when i die， i want it to hurt. i want to get beaten up. i want to hold on until i'm thrown off and everything ends. until that happens， i want to hope again. and i want it to hurt. because that means it meant something.

Maria and I used to look at the stars from the ark ... but we were more focused on earth at the time ... This feels different .. I wish she was here to see it .

To fight right ?

Aren't there enough of you already ? [ Dramatic sigh ]

You're right ... right about so many things ... [ The stars shimmering in the night sky and a gentle breeze is the last thing Shadow clings to before closing his eyes ; he begins to doze off , for once feeling at peace . ]