@NessProtector >> still there. [[I'm glad Jake didn't shut down the idea completely]] I know he starts acting more aggressive after he's been around >>

@NessProtector >> my parents. When do you think he will shift? I hope he isn't too young.

@NessProtector Well it might happen around the same time. He's also around me and now Sarah. I would hope it happened later. That's a lot for >>

@NessProtector >> a young boy to have to deal with. [[I don't want to think CJ as a wolf]] maybe there won't be any vampires around and we won't have>>

@NessProtector >> to worry.

@NessProtector I hope not. He's my baby you know. I don't want him to go through everything you had to. I know you're good now but it took how long >>

@NessProtector >> for us to get here. [[I yawn and realize that I'm starting to get tired]] We should go lay in bed baby. I'm kind of tired. We can >>

@NessProtector >> watch a movie until we fall asleep.

[[I toss the ball to CJ and he hits it with a bat. @NessProtector usually tosses the ball to him but he isn't home yet. He should >>

>> be coming home soon]] "Mom...Dad usually throws it harder. You made it easy for me." [[He hands the ball back to me. It makes me >>

>> laugh because he has grown so much this past year. I throw the ball again a little harder this time and he misses the ball. He >>

>> throws the bat on the ground.]] "I'll wait until Dad gets home" [[I roll my eyes and Sarah starts to whine in the playpen. I walk over >>

>> to her and pick her up]] Daddy will be home soon. (@NessProtector)

[[I've had the worse week of my life. I guess this will be right after nearly dying giving birth to Sarah. @NessProtector is being his usual self. Not showing any sympathy for me or my family. What he says go and we all have to go along with it. CJ has a lot of questions. >>

>> questions I'm not able to answer. He wants yo know why the Cullen's have to move and when will he be able to visit his grandparents again. The word "never" comes to mind but I don't want to tell him that. I had him talk to @NessProtector about it but I don't know what >>

>> was said. Now @NessProtector, me and the kids are on our way to say our goodbye's to my family. Jake didn't even want to go but if I had to do this he has to come witness. I already have Sarah ready and the diaper bag by the door. CJ is also ready. The only one we are >>

>> waiting for is @NessProtector. So I yell upstairs to him.]] Jake are you ready?

[[It's been a week since my family left town. I feel like a part of me is missing. There is a hole where my heart is. @NessProtector doesn't realize just how close i was to my family. If he did he wouldn't have forced them to leave like he did. I want to see it from his >>

>> point if view but I can't. Not only has it been hard for me but it's been hard on CJ. Every day he asks if he can go see his grandparents. He knows they don't live close any more but he still wants to go. He asked me if he could just go to the house alone. He said >>

>> he knew the way but he got mad with me when I told him no. He's been acting out now. That's why I sent @NessProtector with Sarah to the store for shopping and I stayed home with CJ. Hopefully he will realize that his actions have consequences.]]