love is the most twisted curse of all.

i'm not even mine anymore，i'm yours，and what if you decide that you don't want me? how could you want me like i want you?

tired of this body / cumbersome and heavy.

sigh

i'm.. tired.

i don't think anyone here likes me much. besides.. elias.

god forbid i interact with someone who isnt 'elias'.

maybe the reason god hasn't saved me is because i can't bring myself to believe in him.

he gift—wraps self-sacrifice and calls it love; he has never known how to love any other way. he has never given his heart in scraps — it has always been laid bare， whole and beating， on the altar.

and  you're  trying  not  to  tell  him  you  love  him,  and  you're  trying  to  choke  down  the  feeling,  and  you're  trembling.

i just want a happy ending but i guess that's too much.

just shut up and kiss me you fucking twink.

a lover? maybe. something tender, anyway. but tender like a bruise.

i will break before i yield.

> LRT GOD I LOVE WHEN QUOTES ARE PERFECT FOR BARNABAS

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elias don't be a pussy challenge (apparently impossible)

@silly_g0o0se [🌙] my reaction to this information

> hows it going tmarp twt.