me eating half a peach after working out and calling it refueling

i am craving a kombucha so fucking bad GRRRRRR

might sign up for a half marathon in march.. very delusional as i can’t even run a 5k atm

tried a new fitness class today and was absolutely dying

option a - commit to the relapse option b - commit to recovery option c - somewhere in between

i miss pumpkin spice so much.. looking back at pictures of pumpkin lattes in my camera roll like i’m mourning

first gp appt to be weighed tmr and then out with friends for drinks.. anxious day

going to aim for a 15k steps today, a yoga sesh, 300cal omad, 3 drinks with friends, and an anxiety free gp appt 😌🧘‍♀️

cannot decide if i should spend £35 on a haircut or try to do it myself at home!! last time i cut my own hair was a set of horrific bangs during covid

my scale is showing both 47.4kg and 49kg WHO DO I TRUST

so hungry rn but don’t want to eat till after the gp ugh

arrived and she’s running late by 30mins sigh

need to start increasing my intake bc low res is making my life so awful

have had to just stop in a pub on my way home for water because my vision went black 😭 fucks sake

gp threatened me with in patient and making me take leave from uni if i don’t gain weight 🥴🥴🥴

can’t decide whether i should try to actually gain weight and recover.. or if i should just stuff my bra with assorted items next time i’m weighed

maybe i should stop trying to figure out ways around forced recovery and just. try to recover 😔

does anyone have any experiences with outpatient ed treatment in the uk?? so nervous about weigh ins and if they’re mandatory

saw my mum for the first time in 4 months and she said i look concerningly thin but that i look good this way 🤭

4 days of vacation and i’m so terrified to weigh myself i feel like i’ve put on 5kg from not being able to restrict around my parents