kinda fucked that i have to constantly be busy and distracted so my brain doesn’t default to its factory settings of {depression and suicidal ideation}

😔

Not actively trying to kms anymore but not trying to actively live either

everything is totally okay i just need to get hit by a car

why does real hunger feel good but mental hunger feel torturous

Since I'm kinda "chill" Abt my mom's death everyone now expects me to ALWAYS be chill Abt it like now I can't have a day where I'm sad or everyone just says "I get it's hard but it will pass" like stfu I'm trying to be an adult but I can't keep this up all the time

I just want my space sometimes why is that so hard to understand Like great y'all got over it in a week but I didn't have the time to get over it and mourn

At least I saw my mom in a dream today I'm just sad it was so short It always feels like her soul is visiting me in my dreams to make sure I'm okay

I'm gonna cut myself yay

Ok

Can I stop being depressed

My sister is staying this weekend and we're going to the cinema tomorrow

Don't follow me if you're very very religious I genuinely think you're stupid if you aren't atheist

I have to be evil again there's no other way

I don't want to get up

Hi gang

Hi chat I'm finally in bed After watching that zoomania movie in the Cinema (that fox is literally me wth) we went to some small festival event now I'm tired asf

I need contact lenses but I don't have money nor do I know how to safely get them in and out help me