Looking at old pics where I thought I looked good and I’m honestly just grossed out by how big I was

If I ever gain my weight back I might just kms because I can’t deal with that again I fear

Relapsing into sh at 26 after 7 years is so embarrassing I can’t even do much because I don’t want anyone to see

your arms are the size of someone else’s thighs

eating is so painful it always ends in misery

I don’t usually plan fasts and just go for however long I can but I’ve been binging so much I don’t want to eat anymore

I lied I’m back at 18.5 😔

I don't deserve happiness until I'm skinny enough

i want to be severely underweight and covered in scars

unfortunately i feel the most pretty when i know my stomach is empty

"your ed can KILL you" do you promise👅👅

i dont deserve to be alive for the same reason that i dont deserve to eat: it's painful, it's pointless, it's not worth it.

Binged and gained 3kg in the past 2 months but were so back

🫩🫩🫩🫩

i want to get worse. i want more scars. i want people to know im sick. i want to look as sick as i feel.

Kigrams / el bee es 😭

how old were you when? first kiss: 13 first relationship: 16 first alcoholic drink: 14 smoked: 16 first time having sex: 15 skipping class: 14 used drugs: 17 first tattoo: 19 first piercing: 15 first love: 19 first job: 16